Published on August 16, 2004 By Erikajoy In Misc
Ever get tired of being tired? Not sleepy tired, but just tired. Tired of the way things are, tired of the way things aren't. Just tired. Well, that is where I am tonight. I feel as though my life is just one big period of limboness. Is that a word? I will be turning 25 this year and I feel as though I have not hit any mile stones in my life. I am just beginning to figure out what I want to do with my life, but I am not dating nor anywhere near it. I thought I would have achieved more by this time in life. I had always pictured my life differently and it is not at all what I had imagined for myself. By this time, I would have been married with kids or with a kid on the way. But I remain single and alone with no one to share my life with. It is a deep burning desire I have - to share my life with someone else and it has yet to be fulfilled. I know that God has someone for me, but in all honesty, I get scared. Scared that I will never marry and I will be alone for the rest of my life. I know the Lord loves me too much and I feel that my desire is a God given one. "For it was not good for man to be alone." I just pray and hope that verse applies to me as well.
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on Aug 16, 2004
Don't you worry, Erikajoy. Your 'prince charming' will suddenly appear one day. Just be sure, what kind of a man you are looking for. Meanwhile, keep blogging. I have often feel very low, since childhood, like life is one big black hole but see I have survived so far and even managed to blog regularly. Isn't it surprising ?